Jessamine began to suspect that she might have a serious problem.
She’d had the leaving dream every night for the past seven ten-days, and it only kept getting more intense, its lingering emotions harder to shake off. More and more, her mind drifted over thoughts of Outside in idle moments. Worse, she started finding herself in unfamiliar parts of the City, having chosen detours that just so happened to lead her nearer and nearer the outer walls.
The situation irked her deeply.
It had begun to interfere with her work. She was perturbed and a little nervous to discover, in paging back through the day’s notes, sketches and scrawls in her own hand that she could not recall making – hasty diagrams of adventuring devices that even to her Tinker’s imagination seemed outlandish; almost coherent notes theorizing conditions Outside; and perhaps most unsettling, swaths of paper entirely covered in black ink – darkness.
Her friends were beginning to notice. “Forget to sleep again, Mina? You’re distant today.” “Where’s your mind, sweets? You’ve been staring all Rising.”
As a Tinker, Jessamine lived for problems. Her business was solving them – the more creative the solution, the more lucrative the payoff, the more inflated her reputation.
This, though, was different. This was a problem without a solution.
Leaving the City was out of the question, of course. Inside the City was Light. Outside the City were Beasts. Outside the City was death.
In the leaving dream, however, that logic disappeared. It was always the same.
In it, the entry hall was filled to bursting with people. They stood silent and still, moving only to step aside as she moved through them, making her way to the Gate. It slid open, and beyond was darkness, but she wasn’t afraid. It wasn’t the cold, empty death sentence her waking self knew it to be. This darkness invited, promised adventure, knowledge, freedom far beyond what life inside City walls could ever offer.
Every night in the dream, the Gates closed behind her. Every night in the dream, she didn’t turn back.
Okay, so this… this is a monster. This is the novel I have been trying to write since I was 14. It’s my favorite world I’ve ever built! It has cultures, characters, a magic system, villains… it just doesn’t have a story. Every year or so I bust it out and start over, try to pry something I like out of it… but so far, no dice. I guess this is this year’s attempt at page one!